First and foremost.
I would like to ask me to forgive me.Forgive me for all the frustrations I exposed myself to. The hurting I caused myself with the heavy heart I carried with me around. Forgive me for being too hard on me even when it didn’t make sense. Blaming me on the various mistakes and failures along the way. Forgive me for not allowing half time and assess the situation.
I realize I pushed me too far. Stretched me beyond limits. I may had good intentions. But went overboard. All in all, we have the best moments and those are what I will dwell on as I fare thee well this life.
Friend, forgive me
Forgive me for not being there for you. With no explanation. I know I just vanished when you needed me the most. I was a afraid to fail you. So I cowardly ran away. Decided to go MIA on you. You tried to reach out but I blocked all our communication channels. You did nothing wrong. I was just too scared to let you down. I was afraid to let you know that the problem you were facing, was too big for me to help out.
Am sorry for not being a good friend. For not being helpful. Neglecting our friendship from time to time. Blaming you when you couldn’t help. Not considering that maybe it was beyond you. Hence couldn’t help. Am sorry for expecting a lot from you rather than cherish our friendship. Sorry for everything. Too bad I was not a good friend.
Relatives , forgive me
Forgive me for being too busy for you. Not showing up on the family meetings. Having excuses each time. Distancing myself from all of you. I saw myself as a bother to all of you. I saw that I had too many problems and of little if none help. So I had to eliminate the burden (me) and disappear. Some of you may have run into wrong conclusions but I will try my best to be a good family member as I take my final breaths.
Parents, forgive me.
Forgive me for not being a good kid. For not following instruction and advice. Apologies for deviating from the right path you guided me into. You did a good job in raising me well. But I ended up ignoring all that. I though I was more clever than you. Saw you as just mere old folks. But here I am facing consequences of my stupidity. I may be too late to salvage. But I hope you forgive me for everything.
If I had another shot in life.I would try to make things right. Try to make you proud. But I guess am too late for that.
Don’t allow yourself to reach this point. Make amendments when you still have strength. Forgive where you need to . And ask for forgiveness too. Make peace with your past to avoid it catching up with you. Make time for both yourself and others. Live life and enjoy the ride.
May we all have a fabulous weekend.