Numbness

Have you ever been numb?

Whether naturally or endorsed?

Do you remember how everything around felt at that particular moment?

It was 9:00 am on a Thursday. It was the d-day for my gum surgery. And everyone was on time. I was taken through some basic preparation and elaborated to how the procedure will follow through.

Being my first surgery, I was a little afraid and had a million questions. My mum could detect the fear and she was the first one to assure me that everything will be alright. She went ahead to give a trick that helped me during the procedure. She told me to occupy my mind with all thoughts about her and how she ensures that nothing bad happens to her baby girl. It worked, because whenever I think of her, I feel loved, safe and secured.

The doctor gave me several shots of anesthesia on different parts of my gum and inner parts of the mouth. The shots were painful, for once I preferred the shots on arm. I had to wait for a while before the medicine could kick in. And the dentist kept confirming with me if I felt anything inside my mouth.

As soon as I was numb enough, the surgery procedure kicked off. Only my mouth was numb , so I could hear everything around me. I tried to trick my thoughts as my mum had advised before. But it only worked for a few minutes. Just like other over-thinkers like myself. My mind could not settle. All kind of thoughts crossed my mind.

Then one of them, stuck and kept me busy. Numbness…..I started to think about the state of numbness. That moment when you feel nothing despite what is happening to you. They were cutting my gums but I felt nothing. What if that was possible in daily life? No pain felt is whatever that may cause pain to us.

I remember there was a point where the nurse complained that I was bleeding heavily . And surprisingly the dentists explained that it was a good sign that the wound will heal faster. I got afraid a little and even shivered. To a point the dentist had to confirm if the anesthesia was still working.

So my brain still got afraid despite the presence of numbness in my mouth. Clearly indicating that everything starts from the brains. After the short commercial break, went back to analyzing numbness as they continue to mutilate my gums.

Numbness can be very helpful in couple of ways. Including:

We should be numb towards all the negative energies, all the discouragements, downfalls, among others. We should not allow them to weigh us down. Don’t give them a satisfaction of seeing us suffer the unnecessary pain.

After a few hours, the procedure was complete hence ready to go home and rest. I was still numb and informed that it will remain so for a while. But also equipped me with painkillers for the pain waiting for me on the other side. And yes the pain came in huge amounts.

Let’s observe numbness where necessary and avoid unnecessary pain.